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Well hello!

This past few weeks have been a bit tough for me. I always get a little blue around this time of the year, but this year has picked me up, shook me around and dumped me on the couch big time. Everywhere I look I see sadness. And I know that I am not alone.

It started with the murder of Eurydice Dixon and the fog is only just starting to thin. That hit me hard, for some reason.

I always know when I am spinning on the top of the spiral when I stop doing things that I get great pleasure out of. Take this blog for example. Every morning I drag my ass out of bed, switch on the heating, wake up the kids and flick on the coffee machine to pour myself a cup of ambition. Then I sit down at the computer and star at a blinking curser for about ten minutes.

I check my emails, people wanting things from me. The ambition doesn’t kick in. I eat hot chips and watch really bad television shows. I go to work meetings and my normal, creative mind chooses not to attend.

My friends, there’s a hole in my bucket. What will I fix it with?

I am not going to sit here and pretend that the world is a wonderful place when all of the media outlets are telling me how horrible it is. I read Donald Trumps tweets and I get so sad that this is what the world has become.

Apparently there is a full moon hanging around, and a full moon makes moody Cancerians ever more moody.

Cancer has the distinction of being a sign that is ruled by the moon, so everything about the full moon hits harder for them. “Cancers are the sign that feel everything very intensely, especially as it relates to home,” Dr. Perrakis says. “The light side of that at the full moon is they feel like they have more energy than ever to communicate their feelings, to love their family, to be intimate with their partner. The other side of that is that they can become overwhelmed by their own feelings.” Don’t be surprised, Cancer, if you find yourself crying a lot at the full moon because your emotions are welling up and you can’t control them, she says. Taken from HERE

Thank you Dr. Perrakis! Maybe I should just put that on an auto-respond to emails and retreat back into myself. But I can’t. It is not good and it is not healthy. I am going into Channel 9 this afternoon to record a podcast about why everyone seems a little angry at the moment. Angry or sad it seems. Let’s all blame it on the moon, shall we? Bastard thing.

I want to check in with you.

How are you doing?